It's happy indeed coz:

I just got renewed

I just had an answered prayer

I lost weight

I'll be getting a new cellphone

I'll be seeing more of the esbi pips

But I really really really have to work on my punctuality. That particular new year's resolution died an early death the other day. Hay. But hey, who says I can't have a Valentine's Day resolution.

I will always be on time.

Nyahaha. Mood swings are fun when you're on the upward part.

Note: If you are planning to visit the dentist anytime in the near future, do not read this entry. R18 for violence and graphic scenes.

I have been blessed with a set of chompers that has never had a cavity or any of those dental problems that should plague a sweet tooth like me. I just have a tendency to bite inedible metal objects and possess an overabundance of molars, more commonly known as wisdom teeth. Years ago, the dentist saw that mine were impacted. That is, the lower right and left 3^rd molars grew sideways, nakahiga sila in relation to my other teeth. Ang weird tingnan sa xray. Since they weren’t painful, I ignored the suggestion to extract them. If it ain’t broke, don’tfix it was my philosophy.

Last year the right molar started to erupt…painful but bearable. Then the pain stopped… and so did the tooth, just half of it peeked through my gums, leaving a debris-collecting space. As my dentist predicted, I found it hard to brush, and or the first time was faced with the threat of a rotten tooth. So armed with the knowledge that we were in our lull season at the office, I set an appointment for an extraction last Saturday.

Hindi extraction ang nangyari…. Torture po.

First the dentist applied topical anesthesia, then inserted a long needle in my mouth. At that point I closed my eyes and began humming songs to distract myself. I think she injected me 5x in the next 3 hours.

Yep, THREE hours. It took her 3 hours to cut me open, isolate the tooth, drill the bone and forcibly twist the tooth out of my mouth. Half of those 3 hours was the forcibly twisting part, since my tooth seemed to be permanently attached to my mandible. Too much calcium, the dentist half-joked while cheerfully grinding away. My jaw will never be the same again; then again the dentist’s hands were reddened from the effort. And twice in those 3 hours the anesthesia wore off; I discovered that my pain threshold is…non-existent. And I will not mention the blood…okay, I just did.

I’m amazed at modern medicine; exactly half my lip, tongue and inner cheek was numb from the anesthesia. I could feel the pressure of the instruments, but no pain. Well, at least none until she gave the few final twists. With excruciating cracks, my tooth finally surrendered. She stitched me together, gave me a prescription for half the pharmacy, then told me to come back week later.

Post-operative Care: I was extremely quiet for 24 hours, subsisted on icecream, soft bread and noodles and slept the rest of the weekend. No hot food, no nuts, no solid food, no extreme activity. End result: I got hungry.

Now: I’m back to work. I am still hungry. Ate rice and soup veeeerrrry slowly. Longing glances at the heaps of pasalubong in our office…no-no’s for me, all nuts and hard sweets. Through no fault of mine, the sutures have a minor abscess, got to take a stronger antibiotic. No pain because I was given a heavy-duty painkiller, the kind given to women who have given birth, hehe. I am starving.

Positive note: I shall get thinner. And the the next tooth has been unanimously scheduled for next year.

My first tooth extraction was traumatic.

Don’t say I didn’t warn you.

Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the Bright and Morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You're

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours

Who Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love and watch me rise again
Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me

I am Yours
Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
'Cause I am Yours
I am Yours

-by Casting Crowns, unang narinig sa debut ni blesscille

Points of Grace

Despite the constant threat from my bosses, the hectic day I was hoping for did not materialize. Go figure. Marami naman akong nagawa, di ko lang na-feel na busy ako.

Blessing na rin kasi di na masyadong namamaga ang gums ko at nakapangalap ako ng lyrics sa net.

Yahoo! 5:30pm na!

And I shall be on time tomorrow. Not late. Wala pa akong on time na araw this year. waaaaaaaah.

and I am hungry.

WAHEHEHE

I was 3 minutes early today. =) Mantakin mo yun?

At may pizza dito sa opis, yahoo!

At pupunta ako ng Cosmo today.

At di na masakit tahi ko.

At babalik na mp3 ko mamaya.

Life is happy.

I was tasked to shred a huge box of documents. Nakakatuwa pala magshred...vrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

 *red light blinks*

*smell of burning wires*

 nag-overload ang shredder. me and technology. kaboom!

The Lord is teaching me to wait. wait. and wait some more.

He uses the stick, what with all the rebukes, disappointments, tears, frustration, broken hearts (haha!) and failures i've incurred in the past just because of my stubborn impatience.

but He also waves a carrot in front of me, in the form of answered prayers (na ang answer niya ay yes, YES!), opportunities, learnings, clear directions, inspiration (both the intellectual and emotional kind), new friends, fellowship, that elusive connection with the HS, and joy joy joy even in seemingly ordinary days and simple things.

yesterday was a typical Sunday...but for no definite reason, I was happy. just because.

Love is.. patient, kind, slow to anger... atbp (1Cor 13)

Suffering is.. motion sickness in Ayala, during rush-hour traffic

Happiness is.. a musical Sunday

Laughter is.. being with them
 

Relief is.. getting my tooth extraction stitches removed WITH anesthesia

Laziness is.. me.

After graduation, ilang buwan din akong di nagpakita sa aybi o nagparamdam man lang. Partly dahil walang perang pamasahe ang bum, walang oras gumala ang uwian ng Las Pinas, walang energy lumipad ang may patong-patong na events, mahal ang load kapag wala ka nang allowance, may kelangan akong i-obey na "let go and let God," at partly dahil feeling ko iba muna ang pinapatutok sa akin ni Lord. Medyo na-neglect ko kasi ang ministry ko sa church and family nung college eh.at...feeling ko antanda ko na para sa isang campus ministry.

Feeling ko lang pala yun. Dugong IV na talaga ako. di maalis na mamiss ko ang mga tao at karanasan. Kaya unti-unti akong nagparamdam muli...sa esbi overnyts, sa iv day, at ngayon sa ym at minsan sa text (di pa kaya ng kapangyarihan ko ang tawag eh.)

At ngayong linggo, may pinasukan na akong bagong antas: ang IV professionals movement. Naks! bigatin pakinggan. at totoong mga heavyweights mga tao dito..pagdating sa Word, worship, prayer, kainan, kantahan, kwentuhan at alaskahan. nung 1st CG ko sa IVPM, parang antagal ko na kasama mga CGmates ko, saya! greenbelt 1 kami, napalakad ako ng malayo pero sulit naman. nalaman kong di ako nag-iisa sa aking mga karanasan sa marketplace. may niremind pa sa akin si Lord about "pruning" (Secrets of the Vine, John 15.)

Ngayon, pupunta naman ako sa 1st IVPM LG for 2006. ang galing ni Lord, katapat lang namin na building ang venue! Astig talaga Siyang sumagot sa panalangin...kaso, kelangan lang na magtiwala sa timing Niya. Isang taon kasi akong nawalan ng regular BS, at ngayon may 3akong pwedeng salihan.

Blessings pa: na-ayos yung major blooper ko kaninang umaga at marami akong nagawa ngayon. Kahit na kasinliit ng buto ng mustasa ang faith ko....

"Persevere in your faith. Do not throw away your confidence in the Lord. God will richly reward you in all things." Hebrews 10:35

Noong linggo, ilang oras tumigil ang pag-inog ng mundo sa pinas. lahat nakatutok sa tv, sabik na pinapanood ang kanilang pinaka-idolong boksingero. at di niya tayo binigo. panalo si pacman!

kahit isa ako sa mga kakaunting di nakapanood ng laban na yun (nanood ako ng narnia eh) natuwa talaga ako sa pagwawagi ng ating kababayan.

sana sa pulitika, ekonomiya, atbp panalo rin ang bansa natin.

In My Life

Though the music is sweet
But the song ain't complete
Now in my life
Boy in my life
Something is missing
It's a tune
Yes it's true
Still there's no me and you
Here in my life
Boy in my life
Something is missing

In my life
There ain't no melody
In my life
There ain't no harmony
To help me sing a song

All I need is a cue
While Im waiting for you here
In my life
Boy in my life

You are the melody
'Cause in my life
You are the song

In my life
There ain't no melody
In my life
There ain't no harmony
To help me sing a song

All I need is a cue
While Im waiting for you here
In my life
Boy in my life

You are the melody
'Cause in my life
You are the song
Baby in my life
You are the song
You are the melody to me
baby in my life
in my life
you are the song

ganda talaga ng boses ni patti austin =)

by Switchfoot 

maybe i've been the problem
maybe i'm the one to blame
but even when i turn it off and blame myself
the outcome feels the same

i've been thinking maybe i've been partly cloudy
maybe i'm the chance of rain
and maybe i'm overcast
and maybe all my luck's washed down the drain

i've been thinking about everyone, everyone
you look so lonely

but when i look at the stars, when i look at the stars
when i look at the stars, i see someone else
when i look at the stars, the stars
i feel like myself

stars looking at a planet, watching entropy and pain
and maybe start to wonder
how the chaos in our lives could pass as sane
i've been thinking about the meaning of resistance
of a hope beyond my own
and suddenly the infinite and penitent begin to look like home
i've been thinking about everyone,everyone you look so empty

but when i look at the stars, when i look at the stars
when i look at the stars, i see someone else
when i look at the stars, the stars
i feel like myself

everyone, everyone feels so lonely
everyone yeah everyone feels so empty

when i look at the stars,
when i look at the stars,
when i look at the stars,
i feel like myself
when i look at the stars, the stars
i see someone.

Amazingly, a rock song that I actually appreciated; I tend to avoid loud music, but Switchfoot’s piece is worth the noise, hehe. I found the lyrics at this blogsite: http://www.brokenmasterpieces.com/archives/001745.html

and i share the blogger's sentiments:

I love the night sky. It reminds me of how small and insignificant i and my problems are in light of the infinite. When I look at the stars i feel like myself.

MATA - By Mojofly

kamusta na
nanjan ka pa ba
wala na yatang ibang magagawa kundi tumawa
nanjan pa ba mga alaala
ang tanging bagay na naiwan sa ‘ting dalawa

‘wag ng paikutin ang isa’t isa
lahat ng bagay ay malinaw na
di na rin kailangan pagpilitan pa
di mo na kinakailangan pang magsalita

nakita ko na lahat ito
pinahihiwatig ng mata mo
salamat na lamang sa ‘yo

how to get rid of the sin that so easily entangles?

focus on Him.

now how do i translate realization into action? arg.

Happy Birthday Hannah, Joni, Cha-Cha, Che, Joan, etc etc!