Entries for May, 2005

May 3, 2005
BECAUSE HE FIRST LOVED ME...
Posted at 05:13 PM

I’m part of the fellowship of the unashamed
I have stepped over the line.
The decision has been made.
I’m a disciple of Jesus Christ.
I won’t look back, let up,
slow down, back away, or be still.
My pass is redeemed, my present makes sense,
my future is secure.
I’m finished and done with low living,
sight walking, small planning, smooth knees, colorless dreams,
tamed vision, mundane talking, cheap living, and dwarfed goals.
I no longer need prominence, prosperity.
I don’t have to be right, first, tops,
recognized, praised, regarded, or rewarded.
I now live by faith, lean on His presence,
walk by patience, lift by prayer, and labor by power.
My face is set, my gait is fast,
my goal is heaven, my road is narrow,
my way rough, my companions few,
my Guide reliable, my mission clear.
I cannot be bought, deluded, or delayed.
I will not flinch in the face of sacrifice,
hesitate in the presence of the adversary,
negotiate at the table of the enemy,
or meander in the maze of mediocrity.
I won’t give up, shut up, stored up,
until I have stayed up, stored up,
prayed up, paid up, and
preached up for the cause of Christ.
I am a disciple of Jesus. I must go till he comes,
give till I drop, preach till all know,
and work till he stops me.
And when he comes for His own,
he will have no problem recognizing me
--- my banner will be clear!
*from vida's blog, "Christian Committment"
and a CAMP SONG from ISCF Mission Discipleship Camp 2005
TESTIFY TO LOVE
by Avalon
all the colors of the rainbow
all the voices of the wind
every dream that reaches out
reaches out to find where love begins
every word in every story
every star in every sky
every corner of craetion lives to testify
chorus: for as long as i shall live
i will testify to lovei'll be a witness in the silence
when words are not enough
with every breath i take
i will give tahnks to God above
for as long as i shall live
i will testify to love
from the mountains to the avlleys
from the rivers to the seas
every hand that reaches out
every hand that reaches out to offer peace
every simple act of mercy
every step to kingdom come
all the hope in every heart will
speak what love has done










May 9, 2005
MAIKSI LANG ITO
Posted at 02:24 AM

"In essentials, let there be unity.
In non-essentials, let there be liberty.
In all things, let there be love."
--Augustine of Hippo
Yun lang.
Okay, sige na, pagpapanggap para sa akin ang super iksing blog.
natutuwa ako kasi i spent d weekend at subic with my family for the Smart company outing, SWIMMING, yehey! i imitated a cooked lobster in my orange bathing suit. bonded with my brother and ate a lot.
nalulungkot ako kasi...have i mentioned that i'm fat now? yep. two weeks = blimp. hay. its not the aesthetics that's worrying me, its the fact that i have to buy new clothes coz my old stuff wont fit. arg. i hate shopping.
natutuwa ako kasi i'm finally bonding with the youth at my home church...at last.
nalulungkot ako kasi ngayong nasa amin na ako ulit, hirap akong magpunta ng church kapag Sunday. at mag-QT.
natutuwa ako kasi may bago akong PP at mga alaga.
nalulungkot ako kasi di pa rin kami magkasundo ng taong dapat kong mahalin.
natutuwa ako kasi may magtuturo sa aking mag-gitara at bibili ako ng bagong guitar sa wednesday.
nalulungkot ako kasi feeling ko sobrang hindi pa ako handa sa 2 mahahalagang paglalakbay na dapat kong gawin. malapit na sila at...waah.
natutuwa ako at pinapayagan na akong gumala.
nalulungkot ako kasi kelangan ko pa rin ng tagahatid at tagasundo sa karamihan ng lakad ko.
natutuwa ako at nalulungkot dahil hindi ko pa rin alam ang gagawin ko sa buhay ko after grad.
at... himlayan na.










May 10, 2005
A TIMELY FRIENDSTER BULLETIN
Posted at 03:20 AM

Swak talaga si Lord. akalain ko ba namang makita ko ito sa friendster bulletin board at this point in my life...hehe. Che, thanks nak.

Message: para sa mga taong nanliligaw,
nagbabalak
manligaw,
nililigawan, naliligaw, nag-iintay maligawan at
nagbabalak lumagay sa magulo..........

ang love ay hindi minamadali...
hindi pinipilit..
at lalong hindi kina-career...aray ko


unang-una...

PAANO MO BA NASABING MAHAL MO NA
SIYA???...

dahil ba natutuwa ka sa kanya???...
o kaya naman naaaliw ka???...
naswee-sweetan ka ba ng sobra sa kanya???...
kinikilig ka ba pag nakikita mo siya???...
at nahi-high kapag naririnig mo na ang boses
niya???...

eh teka muna...
baka naman infatuated ka lang....
o kaya naman kagaya nga ng sagot mo...
BAKA naaaliw ka lang...
dahil kakaiba siya...
may spark na hindi mo maintindihan...

tsk!!!...
ang saklap nyan!...


pangalawa...

GAANO MO NA BA SIYA KAKILALA???...

madali ba siyang mapikon???...
pano ba siya mabadtrip???...
madali bang mahalata na may topak siya???...
ano bang suot niya pag nasa bahay siya???...
shorts ba o pantalon???...
nakasando ba siya o naka-t-shirt lang???...
matagal ba siyang maligo???....
kumakain ba siya ng vegetables???...
tamad ba siya???...
mas gusto ba niyang manood ng tv kaysa
magbasa
libro???...
nagpe-play station ba siya???...
tatlo ba ang pamangkin niyang lalaki???...
makukulit ba yung mga kamag-anak niya???...
green ba ang kulay ng gate ng bahay nila???...
sa village ba siya nakatira???...
may sakayan ba ng jeep na malapit sa kanila???...
nagsisimba ba siya linggo-linggo???...
kasama ba yung pamilya niya???...
at nagdadasal ba siya bago matulog???...

in short...
alam mo na nga ba???...
ang mga bagay-bagay...
ang mga simpleng bagay tungkol sa kanya...
na nagdedetermine ng sarili niya...
as in kung sino ba talaga SIYA...

pangatlo...

KAYA MO BA SIYANG TANGGAPIN???...

as in TANGGAPIN ng buong-buo...

sa lahat ng trip niya sa buhay...
sa lahat ng katopakan niya...
sa lahat ng pag-iinarte at pag-dadrama niya...
sa lahat ng kasalanang nagawa, ginawa, at
gagawin
pa lang niya...
sa lahat ng naiisip niya...
sa lahat ng sasabihin niya...
sa kilos niya...
sa pananamit pa pala niya...
sa pagsasalita...
sa pananaw niya sa buhay...
sa pagtrato niya sa tao...
sa lifestyle niya...
sa uri ng pamilyang meron siya...
sa uri ng kaibigang kasa-kasama niya...
sa style niya pagdating sa love...
sa kasweetan niyang natural...
sa paglalambing niya...
sa tawa niyang pagkalakas-lakas...
sa manners niya...
sa bisyo niya kung meron man...
sa mga pang-aasar niya sayo...
sa style niya pagdating sa pagsolve ng problema...
sa problemang maaari ka ring masama...


pang-apat...

KAYA MO BANG MAGING TOTOO???...

kaya mo bang makita yung sarili mo...
na kasama pa rin siya ha...
sa isang sitwasyong pag naisip mo eh...
mapapaiyak ka na lang sa sakit...
nang dahil din sa kanya???...

kaya mo bang magmukhang tanga...
as in umiyak ng dahil sa kababawan...
ibuhos ang mga nararamdaman mo...
kahit na puro kababawan nga lang naman...
as in kahit sa harapan niya???...

kaya mo bang maging barubal pag kasama mo
siya???...
yung tipo bang wala ka ng pakielam...
mawala man ang manners mo...
na wala ka naman talaga...

in short...

KAYA MO BANG MAGING IKAW KAPAG
KASAMA
MO NA SIYA???...

yung tipong hindi ka nahihiyang ipakita kung sino
ka
talaga...

dahil alam mong...

HINDI MO LANG SIYA TANGGAP...

TANGGAP KA RIN NIYA...

BUONG-BUO RIN...


MGA TAO!!!...
tama na kasi ang trip...
tama na ang pagmamadali...
oo masarap ngang mainvolve sa isang tao...
pero diba mas masarap yun...

LALO NA KUNG ALAM MONG TOTOO YUNG
NARARAMDAMAN MO..

One Word: WAIT!!!!....In GOD's Perfect time,
mransan m ding KILIGIN 4 d RIGHT PERSON un
ay kng d ka tnwg ni LORD 4 BLESED
SINGLENESS....meantime, PREPARE urself 4 dt
RIGHT PERSON....BE THE BEST YOU CAN BE
coz 4 sure HE or SHE will be GOD's BEST for
u...para fair naman.....c",)











May 10, 2005
NANG DI KO NAMAMALAYAN...
Posted at 02:11 PM

Nakaka-mahigit isang taon na pala ako dito sa tabulas.

isang taon na akong blogger.

whee!

salamat kay joni, ang dakilang may pakana ng site na ito. wala akong ginawa sa design kundi magtype at sumigaw nang "bakit nag-hang???"

kila ate riz, marian, atbp, mga maestro sa larangan na ito.

at sa mga fans/stalkers/lurkers and friends in near and far-off places na laging sumusubaybay sa aking mga paglalabas ng sama ng loob... salamat talaga! 











May 14, 2005
JAMMING
Posted at 12:31 AM

Bumalik ako ng dorm, hence my three-day internet fast. primarily to pack 5 years' worth of junk, but my ulterior motive was to go to church. things just seem to conspire to keep me from going to cosmo when im at home, hay.

happiness! i have a new guitar. i am eternally grateful to kuya ike and esrie for the company and the expertise. kahit medyo naprito kami ng buhay sa paghahanap ng gitara sa tanghaling tapat sa raon, masayang mangarap na bilhin yung mga mahal na instruments. ang ganda talaga, red and black acoustic guitar na may pick-up. bininyagan na namin siya, i named her "Himlay." hehe. and it wont gather dust, one of my numerous offspring bravely offered to teach me, yehey!

happiness ulet! was blessed to be part of two jamming sessions with my churchmates, aka the halimaw musikeros: kuya ike, aton, esrie, jp, pd, etc. di ko kinakaya ang powers nila. parang nakalulon ng cd ng hillsongs. just this afternoon, napagtripan naming magrecord ng "blessed" sa sanctuary. wow. di kami lahat makapaniwala nung narinig namin, ang astig ng tunog. dinaan sa dasal, hehe.

so my LSS for now is...

BLESSED

Blessed are those who dwell in Your house

They are ever praising You

Blessed are those whose strength's in You

Whose hearts are set on our God

We will go from strength to strength

Till we see You face to face

Hear our prayer

O Lord God Almighty

Come bless our land

As we seek You

Worship You...

For You are holy,

For Your are holy, Lord











May 16, 2005
HIMLAY
Posted at 11:59 PM

a very deep tagalog word referring to inactivity, rest, or euphemistically, death.

a common expression among the young people of our church recently. gained popular usage among the VCS volunteer teachers of the Pandacan outeach, and eventually other cosmo cyf. used to describe that unique feeling after hours of handling scores of rowdy, i mean, lovable kids.

for me, its that sleepy, half-conscious, droopy-eyed state of being. evrything seems a blur. and any horizontal surface is an open invitation for a nap. experienced a severe bout of this last Sunday, since i was forced/coerced/harrassed/coaxed to attend the tagalog service of our church... at 8:30. AM.

since im from the evening 530pm Vesper service, i usually wake up at 3pm. so it was miraculous that i actually woke up before noon. the bright sunlight toasting me in bed was a great alarm clock, plus 5 dorm mates poking at me. plus sweet actually went up to fetch me.

but a deal's a deal...since i asked two Tagalog musicians for help with my and Chuza's offertory song in the evening. and the p&w was a blessing, despite my yawns every other stanza.

managed to survive the service, the BS that followed, the youth service in the youth center aka the pugon, and finally the vesper service and choir practice. until 10pm. the sacrifice was worth it; spent a lot of bonding tym with the youth and our offertory number was beautiful... Lord i offer my life to you.

pero parang ayaw ko na atang ulitin. himlay talaga ako.











May 20, 2005
KC DEBRIEFING
Posted at 02:26 AM

At last! After all the plans that fell through and the camps, acads, etc that got in the way, i finally had a date with lorah and ida. We had kwentuhan galore over coffee and some nutty confection from cebu: me about the ISCF Mission-Discipleship camp and our church youth, lorah about her island hopping and bits from sibol, and ida about Kawayan Camp 05.

okay, it was MOSTLY about ida's one month exile, i mean intensive leadership training, in the faraway island of cebu. i represented batch 2k3 and lorah was from last year's camp, kc 2k4. as ida told us about her experiences, we can't help but reminisce about our own memories of KC. acquaintance, banquet night, WV and NCR, recreation, BSW, CI, sunrises, stargazing, collapsing benches, appreciated people, affirmations, revelations, tearful farewells, communication post-camp... been there, done that (and i guess, i am still doing some of it, hehe). we eagerly listened to a story with a very familiar plot and setting, but a whole new set of characters. the latter makes all the difference.

and, to paraphrase what kuya tedi once wrote in my journal, im excited to see how God changed them in the mountains of Sibonga, and how He would use them back here in the real world.

ida...nakalimutan ko tanungin theme nyo. whatever it is, i hope and pray you'll stay true to it, in heart, mind and deed. and lorah, thanks for letting the blind lead the blind in glorietta. sinabon ako pero okay lang. missed you both! 











May 20, 2005
wALA NA AKONG MAISULAT...
Posted at 05:08 PM

1. HOW'S LIFE TODAY?
- uncertain but secure

2. Major plans this week
- ISCF MDC getog, buy a hillsongs concert ticket! SVCF overnyt planning at EJ's
3. THE MOVIES I'VE WATCHED MOST
NUMBER OF TIMES ARE...
- the sound of music, Lord of the Rings trilogy, the original Star Wars trilogy
4. FIRST THING YOU THOUGHT ABOUT THIS
MORNING WHEN YOU WOKE UP?
- arg! dental appointment!

5. WHAT DO YOU HAVE HANDY AT YOUR
BEDSIDE?
- my cell (which also serves as my alarm clock), my glasses, journal, bible and devotional

6. IF YOU WERE A CELL PHONE, WHICH
MODEL WOULD YOU BE?
- yung pinaka-low tech na functional...simpleng tao lang po na walang muwang sa teknolohiya
7. what do you do when you can't sleep?
- walk around, drink water 

8. WHAT MAKES YOU UNIQUE TO OTHERS? -
my brain (haha!) and my out-of-whack body clock

9. SCHOOLS YOU'VE ATTENDED?
- Harris Memorial College, Sta Isabel College,  UPM

10. FAVORITE HANGOUT PLACE(S)?
- my bed, dorm room, the sanctuary

11. 3 THINGS YOU CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT?
- books, music, communication
12. FIRST THING YOU WILL BUY IF GIVEN ONE
THOUSAND DOLLARS?
- a hillsongs ticket! books and an automatic umbrella
13. FAVORITE SONG WHEN YOU'RE SLEEPY?
- you've got a friend
14. DO YOU KNOW A GOOD JOKE?
- yah, pero kapag ako ang nagdeliver di ata benta 

15. WHAT IS THE WALLPAPER ON YOUR
CELLPHONE?
- kaboom! and two cups of coffee

16. Any recent funny moment? - KFC, wed nyt, poor pepay being victimized as alwina/darna by the halimaws
17. NAME ONE PRETTY WEIRD BEHAVIOR
THAT YOU START DOING WHEN YOU'RE
FALLING FOR SOMEONE
- i stalk them. and insert their name into every other sentence

18. MOST RECENT MOVIE THAT YOU
WATCHED?
- shux...was it a series of unfortunate events? can't remember. definitely pre-thesis pa yun.
19. GiVE ONE WORD THAT BEST DESCRiBES
WHAT YOU'RE FEELING NOW...
- ouch

20. STUCK ON A DESERT ISLAND & COULD
HAVE ONLY ONE KIND OF FOOD FOR THE
REST OF YOUR LIFE, WHAT WOULD IT BE?
- baka ikamatay ko yan... i thrive on variety

21. FAVORITE T.V. COMMERCIAL?
- i don't watch tv

22. What's your favorite time of day?
- 530pm. pinaka-gising ako then, and its usually near chow time
 
23. FIRST THING YOU'LL SAVE IN A FIRE?
- my family

24. YOUR EYE COLOR?
- black

25. Have you ever witnessed something
supernatural?
- a floating, faceless, white-clad nun holding a candle, when i was in 4th yr HS...and whenever i wake up before noon all by myself
26. WHAT DID YOU WANNA BE WHEN YOU
WERE A KID?
- a doctor
27. WHAT DO YOU USUALLY DO WHEN THE
CLOCK TURNS 7 AM?
- still sleeping

28. DO YOU KNOW A FUNNY, YET SWEET
SONG LINE?
- the bulaklak song...yung mga unang nagturo sa akin nun, hehe.
29. WHAT WILL YOU DO WHEN A PERSON
BREAKS UP WiTH YOU AFTER ONE DAY?
- can't imagine, NBSB ako eh

30. Finally, do you want a million dollars or love?

BOTH!


 











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