GOODBYE, PRACTICUM FOLDER...nyahaha
Posted at 07:50 PM
hmmm, hindi pala ako ADHD (attention deficit hyper-activity disorder). kasi kaya ko nang mag-focus ng matagal sa isang gawain. proof? managed to do my 80-page practicum folder overnight...did it from 1am to 5pm, sleepless ulit. nakarating pa ako ng makati nun just to get my work contract. sanay na talaga akong magcram, ideas overflow.
downside, i slept for 20 hours afterwards. straight. anung araw na ngayon? *disoriented*
buti na lang mababait mga CG mates ko kanina kahit one hour late ako...then again, maybe the free icecream kept me in their good side.nakakatawa, sa kanila ko lang nalaman na may nag-iisip pala na alien si Jesus, at bumalik siya sa kanyang "mother ship" nung nag-resurrect siya.hmmm...
at wala nanaman akong balak matulog mamaya dahil t***** naman ang aatupagin ko.hay, desperate times call for desperate measures.
february naaaa!!! waaah!!!
Entries for February, 2005
February 1, 2005
February 3, 2005
SANA 2 ANG PUSO KO... Posted at 08:31 PM O tatlo... apat na lang kaya? isa para sa thesis (totoo!gusto ko cyang mahalin, dapat ko siyang mahalin pero di ko magawa.ang saklap) isa para sa batingaw (ob kors!) isa para sa esbi/aybi (as if i had a choice...) isa para sa mga kapamilya at kaibigan (na kasangkot na rin ang karamihan sa batingaw at esbi/aybi) isa para sa kanya at sa kanya rin.(hehe) pero kahit gusto ko nang hatiin ang sarili ko sa dami nang gusto kong gawin, isa lang ang lagi kong dalangin... ang isang puso na para lamang sa Kanya. PAALAM... sa isang bagay na naging saksi sa aking mga kasawian, kabiguan, pighati at pagdurusa, sa aking pagtampisaw sa lusak ng kawalang pag-asa ...na naging sanhi ng maraming luha at paghihinagpis. kahit natulungan mo ako kahit papaano, mas mabigat pa rin ang alaala ng mga pahirap na kaakibat ng ating pagsasama. malaya na ako. paalam...scientific calculator. |
February 5, 2005
ANO ANG KAIBAHAN... Posted at 08:46 PM ng "walang ginagawa" sa "gumagawa ng wala?" basahin ang "Alaamt ng gubat" ni Bob Ong para malaman. para sa akin...parang pareho ko silang ginagwa ngayon...bad. |
February 9, 2005
PROGRESS REPORT Posted at 03:26 PM Monday, 5:00am – break mula sa thesis-mode Mga bosing (aka mga taong nagtataka kung gragraduate pa ba ako this sem at mga mahilig mambatok): May chapter 1 and 3 na po ako. Kulang lang ng significance of the study yung chapter 1 at ng research design at instrument yung chapter 3. Kunwari naiintindihan nyo ako ha? Isipin nyo na lang na hindi na ako delinquente, yey! Tapos mamaya may darating pa akong kapatid sa dorm na ipagtytype ako, kahit hindi pa nya alam na haharasin ko siya, hehe. Blessing ang pakikituloy nya sa amin, 50 words per minute ang typing speed ng batang yon. Solb! Wala pa akong tulog. Ganda ng boses ni Ely Buendia. Mas maganda ang sunrise sa bintana. Naiimagine ko na ang danggit breakfast meal ng Chowking. At ang yakap ni Leyn kapag nagpakita na ako ulet sa kanya. Sana maayos interview ko mamaya kahit bangag ako. At… uuy, lapit na Balentyms. THURSDAY, 3:00 PM Ooops..ningas cogon.after ng Monday, nag-cool-off ulit kami ng thesis ko. Bad talaga ako. Dami kong iniisip.. my mom dropped a bombshell on me Monday afternoon about my future. Our future. Hay. Idaan sa dasal! At..yehey, showing na ang aking pinakaabangang Phantom of the Opera. Date movie namin sa Valentyn’s ng mga Halimaw troops. Di pa pwede ngayon, bukas na ang pagtutuos namin ni Villar eh, may chapter 2 pa na kelangan i-cram. So hanggang kanta na alng muna ang gagawin ko…one of my favorite Broadway love songs, typed by an ultra-fast Joni last Monday nyt. ALL I ASK OF YOU No more talk of darkness; Forget these wide-eyed fears. I’m here, nothing can harm you --- My words will warm and calm you. Let me be your freedom, Let daylight dry your tears. I’m here, with you, beside you, To guard you and to guide you… Say you love me Every waking moment Turn my head With talk of summertime Say you need with you, Now and always Promise me that all you say is true – That’s all I ask of you… Let me be your shelter, Let me be your light. You’re safe, no-one will find you --- Your fears are far behind you… All I want is freedom, A world with no more night… And you, always beside me, To hold me and to hide me… Then say you’ll share with me One love, one lifetime… Let me lead you From your solitude Say you need me with you here, Beside you… Anywhere you go, let me go too --- Christine, that’s all I ask of you Say you’ll share with me one love, One lifetime… Say the word And I will follow you… Share each day with me, Each night, each morning… Say you love me… You know I do… Love me --- That’s all I ask of you… |
February 9, 2005
papam-pam Posted at 04:16 PM  You are Drama. You are extroverted and like to show off, but can be very subtle and intelligent when you want. As an expert at story-telling, you love attention and have developed the skill of keeping it. You get along well with Literature and Film. What form of art are you? brought to you by Quizilla |
February 11, 2005
kiliiig Posted at 06:56 PM hehe. may crush ako ngayon. hapi ang buhay, inspired sa thesis. share ko lang. sa 2 tao (oo, dalawa lang kayo) na nakakaalam...SHHHH. kasi pag nalaman nya, di ko na cya crush, sad. hums "till they take my heart away.." |
February 14, 2005
UHC Covenant Posted at 12:41 AM
So... does this guy truly exist?  |
February 17, 2005
HINDI ITO KA-MUSHY-HAN Posted at 05:09 PM dapat kahapon ko ito pinost, kaso unconscious ako ng sampung oras kahapon dahil sa puyat at droga, so ngayon lang ako nakapag-net Written February 16, 2005 Wednesday 4:00am Ayoko ngang magsulat tungkol sa Valentine’s day… Masyado nang talamak, iba naman. Nasabi ko na bang tapos na yung rough draft ng chapter 1, 2, and 3 ng thesis ko? Yehey!!! Pero rough as in magaspang pa sa papel de liha yung pinasa ko, kaya inaasahan ko na babalik muli sa aking duguan ang papel na un. Haaay. Nasabi ko na bang napanood ko na ang Phantom of the Opera? So-so lang ang acting at visuals ng pelikula, dinaan nalang sa kanta. Kuntento na ako. Haay… corny mang aminin, may damdamin din pala ako kasi napaiyak ako sa kasawian sa pag-ibig ng phantom. Masayado siyang api, saying, ang ganda pa nang boses. Mkapag-diet nga at nang makabili ako ng original soundtrack na CD. Nasabi ko na bang may nagbigay sa akin ng red at pink na unan at chocolates sa heart-shaped na lalagyan? Oy, di yan labag sa title ng blog na ito dahil galing sila kina Papa, Mama at Bryan. Therefore, wholesome, hindi mushy. Nasabi ko na bang 6 days late na ako sa aking immunotherapy at baka ikamatay ko ang session mamaya? Hindi ko talaga kayang magising ng kusa ng before noon, e umaga lang Bukas ang allergy clinic. So wala akong tulog ngayon, 8am ay sisibat na ako papunta ng ospital. (note: aaarg.lumobo nga ako at ininjectionan. inantok ng sobra, muntik nang mahimatay sa gitna ng taft.pero buhay pa rin) Nasabi ko na bang marunong na akong magburn ng CD? Ay, oops… say no to piracy! Nasabi ko na bang may apat na tao akong kakilala na nag-birthday nitong nakalipas na 2 araw? Melai, Kuya Cres, Lee Ann, Jenmai, ROY (mwah!) … isang belated na maligayang bati sa inyo. |
February 21, 2005
DALAWANG BUWAN NA LANG Posted at 08:23 PM I realized… Dalawang buwan na lang, April 20 na Commencement. *thunder rolls* Sana. Dapat. But I’m still waiting for my professor to finish checking (tweaking, hopefully, not butchering) my first three chapters. Only then can I proceed with my data-gathering, interviews, etc. Madami pa akong dapat gawin, and only two weeks left. As for now, I’m just doing my best not to worry. I don’t want to; it implies a lack of trust in Someone’s promises. So I try to drown my uncertainties in caffeine and pocketbooks. Attempt to escape momentarily into a world of words and notes, of Phantoms (waah, ang ganda nito! “yummy” daw si Gerard Butler, the Heathcliff-ish Phantom) and Amazing Technicolor Dreamcoats. The diversionary tactics seem to be working. Despite the waiting, I can feel the hours just slipping through my fingers. Time flies. And soon, I’ll have a new song of the moment. CONSTANT CHANGE We’re on the road We move from place to place And often times when I’m about to call it home We’d have to move along Life is a constant change The friends we know we meet along the way Too soon the times we share Form part of yesterday Cause life’s a constant change And nothing stays the same… Oh no… Clouds that move across the skies Are changing form before our very eyes Why couldn’t we keep time from moving on Hold on to all the years Before this moment’s gone Why must we live the days At such a fright’ning pace We’re all like clouds that move across the skies And changing form before our very eyes Have we outgrown our Peter Pans and wings We’ve simply grown too old for tales of knights and kings Cause life’s a constant change And nothing stays the same…oh no |
February 25, 2005
Pahabol sa Valentine's Posted at 05:42 PM
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February 25, 2005
ONE STEP FORWARD, TWO STEPS BACK Posted at 06:03 PM di po ito choreo ng ballroom dancing...status yan ng thesis ko. hay. my meeting with sir villar yesterday gave me a headache. literally. his comments (both spoken and liberally scrawled all over my poor proposal) were straight to the point: "you need to rethink your problem statement." "sabog pa ito, ano ba talaga ang gusto mong gawin?" and: "mukhang nahihirapan ka pa, ako rin." he is indeed one of the few people on this planet who can make me feel incompetent and who can intimidate me. he advised, in his patented i'm-trying-to-be-patient voice, that i need to read more about the topic. hay, mabait naman si sir, stratospheric lang talaga ang standards niya. a small comfort is that i'm not back to square one, may progress na naman ang thesis ko. another consolation was the text i recieved from leyn, when she heard of my dire situation: "gusto mo ipaambush ko c villar? hehe." touched ako. i'm finishing the race... limping and wheezing, but i will cross that line. |
February 28, 2005
PLUG-INS! Posted at 04:54 PM im invyting (harassing, coercing, etc) you to: COSMOPOLITAN LADIES DORMITORY OPEN HOUSE on March 6, Sunday, 8am-5pm. come see me in my natural habitat! and to EASTER CANTATA "The Story" by the Cosmopolitan Vesper Choir March 27, Sunday, 530pm free po ito. |
February 28, 2005
A VERY LONG WEEKEND Posted at 05:03 PM FRIDAY NYT -sleepless, braincrunched with my dorm mate about my thesis SATURDAY 6:30am-2 pm -UP Diliman Main, College of Educ and College of Business Admin Libraries. got 4 books and 2 thesis for my RRL, whee! 2-4pm -rested, fed Gift, tried to make myself appear and smell human once more. 4-11pm KARE+ROCK, songwriting contest, at Indo's Bar, Malate. more than a hundred people came, happiness! still can't believe we at Tanghalang Batingaw managed to organize such an event. bilib ako sa mga contestants, ang gagaling nilang lahat. and although she was ready to drop dead, Elaine, our birthday celebrator, was a veritable super woman. i felt like a tinapa, puro usok ng sigarilyo yung place. but the drink all you can session was the best; nag-take-home ako ng 16 cans ng coke, nyahaha. 11pm-onwards -pack-up, return to the unit for our overnyt SUNDAY -*drops dead* slight fever and major pounding headache. - had the urge to blabber on the cel, so i did. ooops. - took an alaxan, a sinutab and a virlix, then fell into a drug-induced coma MONDAY - woke up after lunch, read - met briefly with Chris, a kcmate from Cebu, at Rob, along with Kuya Cres- had my first motorcycle ride on a public road. whee! - im now waiting for a joni and... THESIS? what thesis? waaaaaaaah |